有人对我说过，要出专辑就应该从最初有这念头的时候，已经开始动笔，和大家分享整个过程。
但对我来说，在享受过程的当儿又要同时进行反映，思考的工作，让我有些分心。。。感觉到对创作过程不够专心，不够贴心，不够完整。
所以宁愿对每个细节抱着较宽容的态度，不要太早对任何东西下判断。
现在是时候反映一下这几个月，至到今天24/1/2011所走经历的事物。
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想念我妈妈。
好奇怪的一句话，没想到就从我嘴里说出来了。
从来都不会真正有这感觉。
原来是真的。
在这7天里头学到的东西不少，但听起来也不多。
需要体验。
脑力否起好多不完整的旋律。 有些兴奋。
有些怀疑。
昨天阿姨问我，下一步是什么。最害怕这问题。
永远没有答案的问题，回让我冒冷汗。
但我还是只能做回我自己。
I’ve never been a planner.
Not that i’ve never tried but it just doesn’t work.
It gets me into a state of blackness, a black hole of nothingness, no colour, no meaning, nothing.
And when i lose that sense of Creative purpose, that defies i’m expected to know, to work, to do,… I withdraw and fade away.
但那感觉很快就消失了。因为走了那么精彩的一段路，也大概揣摩得到自己该怎么对自己的人生有个交代，什么才是真正属于自己的天空，什么才是幸福。
I’m inclined to say this after yesterday’s service at Hillsong.
‘ I’m in touch with reality’.
Yea i’m not a fruitcake if you know what i mean.
The world isn’t a wonderland. There are people who need saving, there are needs to be fulfilled, people need love, and to know that they are loved. There are important crises that are crying out for attention, urgent mouths to be fed. And the question to tomorrow altogether seems like the most important question to most people.
I’m aware of these things, and have lived in that place.
But I’m glad that I’ve made a decision on what truly matters in my life.
Love is.
Love and relationships.
The people you meet and talk to Now, are who that matters. Each person a chance for you to share that love freely given, for me, from God.
Does my career matter? Does having how much money matter? Does the war matter? What about homeless people, dogs, and kittens?
Yes. everything to me does matter.
But if you believe in Faith, Hope and Love, and live and rest in this very moment, This, itself, makes tomorrow. Pray for those in need, reach out to them however you can, and not worry about today. One can only do a single thing in each single moment, and multitasking is merely another way of saying 5 things in 5 moments, instead of 1 i guess. Be genuinely interested in those about you, and be true to who you have been called to be.
I’ve never planned for the album, or my career, or the friendships as some would sadly water down to see as connections, a mere matter of transactions… but looking back on these few months, I continually reflect on how blessed I truly am. Every step of the way, not what i deserve but what favour i’d been bestowed upon, through friends, family, supporters and loved ones.
有这么美好的结尾当起点，就是好的开始。
I have so much to learn but this week of living on my own, learning how to adjust to mere things, will help me prepare for the bigger things. I’m looking forward to wherever He would take me.
